Thursday, January 31, 2013

As promised, I didn't post this picture on Facebook! See, I can totally keep a promise! ;) We all got to hang out tonight! I'm amazed how it never gets old or dull. We ALWAYS have something to talk and laugh about!! The nice people at Zupas didn't even kick us out after we sat there for nearly 3 hours and more than 30 minutes past closing time. I freaking love my friends!

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

All this new snow is insanely beautiful! I absolutely love it when it is on every single tiny branch like this!

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

We got tons of snow dumbed on us today. I bet about 15 inches. Crazy. I totally procrastinated grocery shopping the last few days and had been planning on doing it today. To put it in perspective, I only spent $40 in groceries last week. We were in dire need, so we put it in four wheel drive and drove slow to Walmart.

Since we were out I filled the morning with much needed errands. Fisher and Kolbi were awesome so we stopped by the pet store for fun. They loved it. I sure love the phases these two are in. They're sweet and have no sass. 

 The kids had some fun playing in it. Jackson started an igloo. Kenadee lasted about 3 minutes, maybe, before she was in huge trouble and sent to her room. Sigh. The others quite enjoyed themselves. 

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Taylor fell asleep like this about 30 seconds after I was talking to him. Dressed and ready for church, with a dew in hand. Hahaha!

Sunday best!

I just saw these pictures as I was picking which pictures to upload. Apparently someone was playing on my phone. She cracks me up. Love, love, love her. 

Saturday, January 26, 2013

I freaking love this little girl!! My camo wearing, tutu spinning princess! 

Our friends have been over all day! The 18 month old went to sleep at her own house. She has ear infections and Gwen was worried that she wouldn't sleep well; of course she slept great. haha. The irony. They dropped her back off this morning and it's been a party!
To make this even more interesting, Taylor's been gone since 4:30 am coyote hunting. I'm alone with 8 kids! 9 right now, another neighbor boy (on the far left of the picture) is over too. It's been a little crazy, but super fun too! Sure, I didn't get my workout in or shower, but who needs either of those anyway?!

I made this skirt for Kenadee! It was a dress of mine that shrunk and was too short for me. The cute ruffle on the bottom makes it even better. I love it! I want it for me!!! 

A kitchen full for 4 meals!

The best part of this picture is that they're reading books from the computer. hahaha. I've gotta try to sneak in some sort of learning. :)

Here is Dave and Taylor on their coyote hunt. It looks cold, but like so much fun!! My husband is super hot, too!

Friday, January 25, 2013

We are in the process of having a sleepover with some of the kids best friends. They're playing all day tomorrow too! So much fun! The real smile?! Taylor "might" have sat on the 18 month old on the stairs trying to take my picture. hahaha!

 I put this on Instagram yesterday.... some more random quirks about me. :)

Thursday, January 24, 2013

We had a little day date today!! I love spending time with this man without fighting the kids for his attention. I'm needy like that. :)

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Todays random pictures...

Homework is the biggest battle with Jackson. I don't know what to do. 

I really wanted to take a nap today. So after grocery shopping I had the exact amount of time I needed to run before picking up Fisher from school. This kid could care less if I pick him up all sweating and gross. He didn't say a thing about my bright red face. I love this kid SO much!

Taylor came home from work early (YAY!)  These boys bonded over a plate of nachos. Fisher's sweet face lit up when he was invited to eat some with his dad!

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Taylor sent this to me and said it made him think of me. Awwwww! I freaking love that man of I am. I am so blessed to have him!

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Jackson is hard right now. It exhausts me. Daily. At church today was no different. This kid has so much energy and can't hold still. Ever. He was forced to sit there with no book and no BeyBlade. I guess coming from dad it's worth pouting, but me trying to do the same thing was no big deal. Anyway, Taylor wanted to take a picture of how ridiculous his pout was. 

He forgot to turn the flash off. 

Both adults on the other side looking at the camera are good friends of ours. They were laughing so hard along with me!!  Taylor was mortified. I've been know to take a picture or two during church, yes, even sacrament meeting, but NEVER once with the flash on. We got a good laugh. 

Oh, one more laugh. On my behalf this time. Jackson was holding the water tray (sitting on the end) Kolbi was next to him, then me, then Taylor...... Taylor reaches SO far over and on me to get his water from Jack. I'm kinda being a grouch about it and grab the tray when Jackson and Kolbi were done and am ready to pass it down. I throw the tray into my crossed knees. BANG! So much water spilled and was running down my bare legs and on my pencil skirt.

So, to sum up. Us Becks are a mess. Everywhere we go! 

Friday, January 18, 2013

Today was a great day. I met up with my good friend, Annie, and her girls at McDonalds. We were there chatting away for 2 hours. The first little while Kolbi was insane. She throws fits like any 3 year old, but she was beyond that. You could tell she was exhausted, especially what she was crying over. Crying hard. Red-dots-all-over-her-face hard. Weird. Made me wonder what time she woke up this morning.

Oh well. We survived. She got over it. The kids played great and we caught up on each others lives! 

I got a text this morning from our babysitter saying that she and her family were sick. Bummer. No date night. But grateful for our health so far this winter. We debated finding a replacement sitter, but we've cracked down and are finally doing a REAL budget system. I didn't want to spend the money, but still wanted to do something. I've had these free game of bowling tickets for an embarrassing amount of time. We only needed to pay for 2 people and shoes for all 6 of us. $22. Nice! We had SO much fun!! We got some good videos of the kids cheering and talking smack to me. It was awesome!

This is how we roll. Yep, 4 bowling balls in our lane at one time. Not sure how we didn't get kicked out!! Hilarious!!!

Subway! These kids were starving!!!!! Used 2 coupons and a gift card (again from forever ago...) $3 after coupons and gift cards. NICE! $25 for 2 hours of family fun for six people. WaHoo!!!!!! I sure love this family of mine and love doing activities with them!!!

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Let's get real here. I'm opening up in a way I've never done.
I need to lose some serious weight. I've on and off gained weighed over the past 3 years and would plateau temporarily just to continue the uphill climb. I've gained about 30 pounds. Gulp! 

It's hard to think about and admit to the world. I can not believe I let it go this far. It obviously affects how I feel about myself, daily. 

Yes, I did Ragnar last year, but basically did the bare minimum to get by and not pass out on the side of the road. Nothing more. 

I can't believe I'm typing all this. 

So for the past 2 1/2 weeks I've spent some time on the treadmill doing some serious sweating.  

I have a long way to go. It's so rough to start over, especially when I think that I use to run 1/2 marathon after 1/2 marathon. Taylor and I have talked about it lots over the years. I understand that losing weight isn't going to solve all my problems. I understand that if I can't love myself now, I'm not going to be able to love myself thinner. My weight doesn't define who I am. Yes, it's a part of me, but not all of me. I'm a good person. I have a lot to offer to someone. 

These past 2 1/2 weeks have been hard! It's been hard to make myself exercise. There would be some days I'd sit here on the computer killing time, postponing the inevitable, knowing that as soon as I'm done on here it was time to run. I haven't missed a day of exercise. :)

It's been hard to start changing my diet. I turn to sweets. For comfort maybe. When I'm stressed or overwhelmed. I was doing really good until a few days ago when we made those cookies. Kolbi ate like 7 cookies while I was downstairs running. I originally made them for the kids teachers, so I made another batch. (Kolbi ate another 7-8 cookies early in the morning before the other kids were awake and before she woke me up. I have no clue how early she wakes up anymore... 
Anyways, the cookies were just sitting there yelling out my name after a frustrating parent moment. I'm aware I have no self control. Why'd I make the cookies in the first place? Was I wanting to make myself fail? Did I think that after 2 weeks I was all the sudden strong enough to not cave in? Anyhow, I ate cookies. :( There went the weight loss for that week. So not worth it for a few reasons. #1: I didn't lose weight that week. #2: it made me feel bad that I couldn't say no. It made me feel weak. 

Taylor convinced me to take some "before" pictures. I'm glad I did, even though it is crazy hard to look at. I'm hoping for some dramatic "afters".  I need to change. I am not going to be embarrassed of myself anymore. I'm not going to NOT take the kids swimming because I handle myself in a swimsuit. 

I have some goals I'd like to reach. I'd like to run more 1/2 marathons. I'd really like to run a full marathon. The goal I have for a weight isn't set. It's more of a feeling thing. 

So now that my novel is written, I think I said everything I wanted to say. Wish me luck in this journey.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

These two don't play together very often. I've wondered lately if their 5 1/2 gap was too big so they'd never be good friends. Kenadee always wants to be alone and acts like her siblings are a nuisance.  She's got some attitude issues lately. I'm trying to be patient and work her thru them. It's hard and exhausting as a parent. It makes me so sad. I wanted 4 kids, but I also really wanted THEM to have siblings. As kids and as adults.  This evening I looked over into the living room and saw them playing dolls together. Awwww! It made me think that there is hope and that Kenadee might enjoy having a sister after all. :)

Kolbi and made cookies! None of the other kids were home so she and I were the taste testers! I love these cookies and have become my go to recipe for a quick treat. I love adding different sprinkles for different occasions. 

Monday, January 14, 2013

 I made granola bars today! I asked Taylor if this made me really cool and amazing... or beyond cheap. He had to taste them first to make his decision. He is kinda picky. Not necessarily a bad thing; he just realizes somethings are worth the price. He decided these were good! The kids and I already knew, but didn't want to persuade his opinion. They were super easy to make and have the concept as making rice crispy treats. (stir the cereal mixture into the warm melted ones on the store. ) I had all the ingredients on hand too, making them super affordable! I used this recipe and will definitely be making more!

After the big kids got out of school we took them down to the clinic at Taylor's work for their flu shots. Little miss didn't take a nap and crashed as soon as we started driving. (However, she stayed in her room and let me make some cards and watch a chick flick!!)

Sunday, January 13, 2013

These two are playing the same game on their phones. Taylor is desperately trying to beat Kenadee's high score...

Saturday, January 12, 2013

I think we were the ONLY ones with the idea of Pizza Hut for dinner. Sheesh!!